#my mind is always full of kokuhaku...

[akaboji]

Kokuhaku's daily life...

[izzyizumi]

{Blog Info} The Beginning Spoiler Tags

Anyway, reminder I'll be using: #The Beginning Spoilers (when re-blogging) #TheBeginningSpoilers or #The Beginning Spoiler (Sometimes also when making an original post) Previous spoiler tags used include #Kizuna Spoilers #Tri Spoilers #Bokura no Mirai Spoilers #Our Future Spoilers #Kyousei Spoilers {Tri Pt. 5}, #Soushitsu Spoilers {Pt. 4}; #Kokuhaku Spoilers {Pt. 3}, #Ketsui Spoilers {Pt. 2}, and I don't always tag Saikai anymore (reminder this has always been an overall spoiler-free blog for older series, especially everything pre DigiAdv 2020, Ghost Game and Survive) but if it's concerning big plot points and meta, #Saikai Spoilers may also be used. #DigiAdv 2020 Spoilers is still being used for more spoilery DigiAdv 2020 meta and discussion, but also may not always be used depending if I can fit in tags or not (as the tag limit is 30 tags).

Questions about my blogs' upcoming experience with anything related to The Beginning under the 'read more'.

Which version are you seeing? It depends if I can even make it to the showing, but I'm NOT seeing the U.S. dub version tomorrow, and instead would be seeing the sub on the 9th IF AND ONLY IF it actually works out reminder I am Disabled and sometimes get chronic pain flareups, so we'll see what happens on the day of.

Are you planning to review it? Probably not. I'm not the type to make full-on reviews... If anything I will likely just reblog related stuff, and even that may not happen for a couple weeks still, as I have to build the blog queue back up. I almost have half a mind by now to refund my ticket{s} me and someone bought but its already the day before and I'm not sure I can. At the least my theater here might be pretty empty, so we'll see. It's not necessarily that I don't want to see it on a personal level (I very much do), but I'm going to be honest about my overall opinion once it's out.

Can I ask you your opinion on something {to do with the series}? As long as you understand I am not open to full-on "debating" about it (OR the typical timeline debates; or U.S. dub-vs-sub semantics) and as long as my opinion can be generally respected, catch me when my Ask box is open. Asks here should generally be kept specific to this fan base and this fan base only. {Also, more specifically, Adventure{s}-related franchise as a whole. Yes, I know 'Adventures' is not an official title and I do not need to be told that, it's for tags organization and clarifications' sake when I talk about the whole franchise.} (Just clearing this up now in case, since I'm not sure what the state of things is going to look like after tomorrow.)

[shiningsatori]

Kokuhaku

Hellooooo! This is the first... fic? imagine? what are they called? I don’t know :( but it’s my first time writing here so please don’t be too harsh, pleeease! 

I just wanted to say that I love Satori so much and I need to read more things about him :( that’s how I ended up writing about him. It’s not a big thing, just something that came to my mind while I was at work today and I had the urge to share it. 

Also, English is not my first language so bear with me please, I’m trying my best.

Warnings: angst?? I think. Rejection.

Pairing: Satori Tendo x Reader

“I like you, Satori”

What were you saying? Was this some kind of a prank? No, he knew you wouldn’t do that to him. Then, why would you say something like that?

He felt dizzy.

You looked at him and frowned.

“Are you okay? Is this making you feel uncomfortable?” He didn’t answer, he was speechless and you took that as a yes. “I’m sorry, I never meant to make you feel weird or anything” you sighed. “I just wanted to tell you how I felt because it was getting harder for me to keep it as a secret.”

He wanted to say something, he really did. But he couldn’t. He wanted to tell you that he felt the same way about you, but in reality he was scared.

He had been in this exact position years ago. A girl confessed her feelings to him next to the cherry tree that was just blossoming during spring. He was young and naïve. He really thought that someone could see him as a person and not a monster. So he believed her and gladly accepted her confession, asking her out on a date immediately.

But she never showed up.

He waited for her outside the cinema for at least 2 hours. She never answered his calls or texts.

When he finally saw her at school the next day, he finally understood that she didn’t mean any of the words she told him. She didn’t like him. She didn’t have a crush on him. She was just making fun of him with her group of friends.

He was devastated but he didn’t show it. He wasn’t going to give her or any other person the satisfaction of seeing him break.

So, he moved on. His heart and mind dedicated to volleyball, nothing else.

Until you came around.

You were the new girl in school and you were very quiet. It’s not like you were shy; he had seen that after you had a full debate against one of your classmates and destroyed the poor guy. You weren’t afraid of giving your opinion during classes, you weren’t scared of making mistakes and he liked that, but he decided to keep it to himself and not take any risks.

But then you asked him to be your partner during chemistry class, and saying things like “you look really smart and I honestly don’t want to be stuck again with an idiot and do all the work by myself” and he wanted to say no, he really did, but he couldn’t bring himself to do it. So, he accepted.

You didn’t even notice the weird looks the other students were giving you. You just sat down next to him and started to talk about the project.

That was the beginning of your friendship. Since that day you started to sit next to him at lunch, and you even introduced yourself to his teammates, not feeling intimidated by Wakatoshi’s stern stare. Then you two started to hang out after classes, on the weekends or when he had time off from practice. It was nice being around you, you were really funny and smart, and surprisingly very affectionate.  He liked that, even though the first time you hugged him he felt like his heart was going to explode. After that, it became a normal thing for you two to hug each other. Sometimes you would just sit next to him and place your head against his arm while talking about your day. Jesus, even Wakatoshi noticed and asked if you two were dating. Satori kind of freaked out and started to feel the flush spreading over his face, but you calmly said “not yet” and stared back at Wakatoshi.

Satori didn’t notice you were blushing and of course he didn’t even know you were beating yourself up mentally because you thought that you would scare him away. That was the last thing you wanted to do. You really liked Satori, but you had noticed the way he acted around other people. He was always cheerful and loud, but you knew that deep down he was scared and hurt. Besides, people had let you know what had happened years ago next to the cherry tree and you didn’t understand how someone could be so cruel to another person. Many people had also let you know that Satori looked like a monster and was scary, but you didn’t understand what they meant. Sure, he was weird and loud, but he wasn’t scary or even close to being a monster. He was caring, funny, smart and cute. And you wanted him to know that.

That is how you ended up here, telling him how much you like him, right outside of his favorite manga store, a place where you both had spent a lot of evenings reading and talking.

“Satori, can you please say something?” you asked nervously. You felt uneasy, you felt like you just ruined your whole friendship with him, and even though you wanted to be more than that, you still hoped that at least you would remain as friends if he did, in fact, reject you.

“Um, yeah, sorry, I was a little taken aback by that confession” he laughed a little.

“So…?” you bite your lower lip as you looked up to him. He was blushing and the tip of this nose was red, and you honestly didn’t know if it was for the cold winter wind or by your words.

“So what?” he stared back at you and you felt your heart ache. Was he seriously going to brush off your feelings like that? You honestly didn’t even know if he was rejecting you. “why are you looking at me that?” he asked a little worried.

“Like what?” you frowned. Was he being serious? You felt the tears starting to blur your sight.

“I-I don’t know… like that!” he stammered and pointed his finger at you.

“Like I just confessed my love to a guy and he is clearly ignoring me?” your voice startled him and he looked down. He didn’t want to hurt you or see you cry.

You sighed as you took a step forward and raised your right hand to touch his cheek. He closed his eyes and leaned against your palm, surprised at how warm it was despite how freezing it was outside.

“Satori, I really like you and I understand if you don’t feel the same way about me, but, please, I’m begging you, say something. I promise I won’t get mad at you for rejecting me, but I need to know how you feel. Please” You heart is aching and you honestly no longer know if it is because the idea of getting rejected or because he looks so devastated and lost right now.

He slowly opened his eyes and he felt like crying. You looked so sad and your pleading eyes just made him feel like the worst person on earth. He was an idiot. He was hurting you and he didn’t even mean to do that. Why was he so scared? He knew you wouldn’t hurt him like the other girl did. He knew your heart was in the right place and had no bad intentions with him... but maybe that was the reason why he couldn’t bring himself to accept your confession. You were too good for him. Too good for a monster. You deserved someone better than him. You shouldn’t be stuck with someone like him.

“I’m sorry, but I don’t feel the same way about you” he said while looking directly at you. “I think you are a great friend, but that’s all. I never meant to lead you on. I’m really sorry” It took him an incredibly amount of will power to take a step back and see how you lost all your hope for a positive answer.

“It’s okay, Satori. I understand.” you tried to smile and show him that it was indeed okay, but you couldn’t. You wanted to cry and suddenly you felt like an idiot. You should’ve just kept it to yourself. “I honestly hope this doesn’t affect our friendship. I can handle rejection, but I can’t handle losing a friend.” a small laugh escaped past your lips and you thought that maybe everything was going to be okay. You were going to get over it, you knew that, but it still hurt like a bitch and deep down you knew that it was going to be hard to be around him for a while.

“If that’s okay with you then I’m okay with it” he said while he put his cold hands inside his jacket’s pockets. You just nodded and sighed. “shall we go back to our dorms? I’m freezing and the team would kill me if I get sick” he shivered.

“Yeah, it’s actually getting late. Let’s go” you smiled at him and he smiled back.

It was going to be okay.

[natsuirobtob]

[JPN/ROM/ENG] 二度目の告白 (JPN ver.)

Song: 二度目の告白 (Nidome no Kokuhaku / Second Confession) (JPN ver.) Artist: BTOB Single: WOW (JPN ver.)

JAPANESE

今日はとても大事な日です。 ある女性に、二度目の告白をします。 これから、彼女のところへ行きます。 果たして、彼女は聞いてくれるでしょうか なんだか今日は、いい予感がします。

君に贈る言葉受け取って プライドや言い訳飲み込んで これから二度目言うから聞いて 今日からまた僕のそばにいてね

君の為に鏡でイメトレ中 君だけのセレナーデ猛練習 七転び八起きでまだまだへこたれない へたなレターこれくらい愛込めて

僕ら恋した時間とその夢のような時間も もう全部忘れられなくて All Day想い重ねAll Night眠れなくてGirl 苦しい胸君が溢れて

どうなの？君ばかりだよ ハルハル四六時中考えてるよ もしも君が戻るなら 涙もう出ないよ二度目のConfession

I want you back baby I swear it's true Won't ever make you jealous, I'll make them jealous of you Come back to me, for eternity And take a listen to my 2nd confession please

もう向こう側の道には君の姿 どうしよう胸のドキドキが限界だ だれか今すぐにキューピットの矢射し どうか助けてよ あら、青信号だ！

また戻れるかな僕ら二人 並んで歩いたこの道 パンケーキ屋下北の駅 あの頃のように交差点でキス

孤独な辛い時間と後悔ばっかの日々も もう全部元通りにして All Day想い重ねAll Night眠れなくてGirl 苦しいほどに戻りたくて

そうだよ君ばかりだよ ハルハル四六時中考えてるよ もしも君が望むなら 涙いらないよ二度目のConfession

だれも目に入らない二度目Confession 君へのセレナーデ二度目Confession Throwing away my pride to ask you to come back I'll be your shoulder strap and you can be my backpack

あの頃に僕は戻りたくて 君はWhy Oh Why応えてくれない？ もしも君が戻るなら 涙もう出ないよ

どうなの？君ばかりだよ ハルハル四六時中考えてるよ もしも君が戻るなら 涙もう出ないよ二度目のConfession

ROMANIZATION

Kyo wa totemo daiji na hi desu. Aru josei ni, nidome no kokuhaku wo shimasu. Korekara, kanojo no tokoro e ikumasu. Hatashite, kanojo wa kiite kureru deshouka nandaka kyou wa, ii yokan ga shimasu.

kimi ni okuru kotoba uketotte puraido ya iiwake nomikonde korekara nidome iukara kiite kyou kara mata boku no soba ni ite ne

kimi no tame ni kagami de imetore chuu kimi dake non serenade mourenshuu nana korobi yaoki de mada mada hekotarenai hetana retaa kore kurai ai komete

bokura koi shita jikan to sono yume no you na jikan mo mou zenbu wasurerarenakute All Day omoi kasane All Night nemurenakute Girl kurushii mune kimi ga afurete

dounano? kimi bakaridayo haru haru shirokujichuu kangaeteruyo moshimo kimi ga modorunara namida mou denaiyo nidome no Confession

I want you back baby I swear it's true Won't ever make you jealous, I'll make them jealous of you Come back to me, for eternity And take a listen to my 2nd confession please

mou mukougawa no michi ni wa kimi no sugata doushiyou mune no doki doki ga genkai da dareka ima sugu ni Cupid no ya sashi douka tasuketeyo ara, aoshingou da!

mata modorerukana bokura futari narande aruita kono michi pankeeki-ya Shimokita no eki anokoro no you ni kousaten de kiss

kodokuna tsurai jikan to koukai bakka no hibi mo mou zebu motodouri ni shite All Day omoi kasane All Night nemurenakute Girl kurushii hodoni modoritakute

soudayo, kimi bakaridayo haru haru shirokujichuu kangaeteruyo moshimo kimi ga nozomu nara namida iranaiyo nidome no Confession

daremo me ni hairanai nidome Confession kimi e no serenade nidome Confession Throwing away my pride to ask you to come back I'll be your shoulder strap and you can be my backpack

anokoro ni boku wa modoritakute kimi wa Why Oh Why kotaetekurenai? moshimo kimi ga modorunara namida mou denaiyo

dounano? kimi bakaridayo haru haru shirokujichuu kangaeteruyo moshimo kimi ga modorunara namida mou denaiyo nidome no Confession

ENGLISH TRANSLATION

Today is a very important day. I'll make a second confession to a girl. From now, I'm headed to her place. Alas, will she listen to what I have to say? Somehow, I have a good feeling about today.

I'm sending you these words, please receive them I've swallowed my pride and any excuses Now I'm saying this a second time, so please listen From today on, be by my side again

For you, I'm rehearsing in front of the mirror I'm practicing hard to serenade only you Always rising up after a fall*, but still a long way to go A not-so-great letter, but I've put love into it

The time we spent in love, and the dream-like times too I still couldn't forget about them All Day thinking over them, All Night I couldn't sleep, Girl My heart hurt so much as it filled up with you

How about it? You're all that's on my mind Every day, day and night, I'm thinking about you If you'd just come back to me I won't have to cry anymore My second confession

I want you back baby I swear it's true Won't ever make you jealous, I'll make them jealous of you Come back to me, for eternity And take a listen to my 2nd confession please

I can already see your figure across the street What should I do? My heart's beating is at it's limit Someone, right now, shoot Cupid's arrow to her Please, save me Oh, it's a green light!

Can we go back to when we both walked together along this road that pancake shop, and Shimokita Station Like that time, when we kissed at the intersection

Those lonely and difficult times and days full of regret I just want to fix all of them All Day thinking over it, All Night I couldn't sleep, Girl I want to go back to those days so much, it hurts

Yes, you're really all that's on my mind Every day, day and night, I'm thinking about you If you'd wish to, we don't need anything like tears My second confession

No one else can catch my eye, my second Confession A serenade for you, my second Confession Throwing away my pride to ask you to come back I'll be your shoulder strap and you can be my backpack

I just want to go back to that time So Why Oh Why won't you answer? If you'd just come back to me I won't have to cry anymore

How about it? You're all that's on my mind Every day, day and night, I'm thinking about you If you'd just come back to me I won't have to cry anymore My second confession

romanization & translation by @natsuirobtob

*T/N: This is that saying, “fall seven times, get up eight.”

[izzyizumi]

READY?_ [a Taichi/Koushiro FST]

[ A mini Koushiro Izumi + Taichi/Koushiro (Taishiro/Taishirou) FST (fan soundtrack), interspersed between character songs and etc. + encompassing Digimon Adventure Tri’s Reboot and the potential beyond. -Or, in which Koushiro Izumi angsts way too much for his own good, but Taichi’s always there for him. ] [FULL FST CAN BE HEARD/WATCHED HERE!]

-- THE BEGINNING -- [and so it begins] 1. Digimon Adventure Opening Theme - Butter-Fly [Wada Kouji] [+Translation] 2. Digimon Adventure OST - Adventurer ~Taichi’s Theme~ (Ver 2.) 3. Digimon Adventure OST - Digital Scratch! ~Koushiro’s Theme~ (Ver. 2) -- KOUSHIRO IZUMI -- [or, Koushiro’s journey to find himself + what are these mysterious “feelings”??] 4. Love Lost Elegy [Miku Hatsune] (*serious yet upbeat; “somehow I managed to escape” [that dimension], [taichi’s] “courage”, “XX” --) (*+“but you know what? I’m scared”/“I guess it’s about time for me to save you”) (*the mv here is kinda flashy but this Ib version w/out flashing is a substitute) 5. Listen To Your Heart [DHT] (*this is a classic in general, but LISTEN TO YOUR HEART, KOUSHIRO) 6. Cherish [Ai Otsuka] (*angst/creepy yet hopeful, and the flickering screens in that MV? Adv. EP 21??) (”Love is such a frightening thing / That’s why I run from it, yet chase after it”) (”If we never had the chance to meet each other, I wouldn’t be able to smile the way I do now”) (”This year, the happiest moments I’ve had were the moments I could be there next to you”) 7. Iris [The Goo Goo Dolls] (”And I don’t want the world to see me ‘cause I don’t think that they’d understand”) (”When everything’s made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am”) (”When everything feels like the movies, yeah, you’d bleed just to know you’re alive”) 8. Version Up! (Koushiro’s Digimon Adventure Character Song) [+Translation] -- HOPE -- [or, during Adventure’s Battle for Earth] 9. Be Yourself [Audioslave] (inspiration: this old but amazing amv) (*for both Taichi & Koushiro; but mainly Taichi) (”To be yourself is all that you can do...”) 10. Open Mind (Koushiro’s Digimon Adventure 02 Character Song) [+Translation] -- DESPERATION -- [or, in which Koushiro Izumi helps Taichi Yagami and co. save the world] 11. One Week (Digimon The Movie OST) [Bonus?: my oldschool af amv] 12. Digimon the Movie OST - Birth of Omegamon (*actually cover of Shouri ~Zen no Theme~ from the Adventure Japanese OST?) 13. Brave Heart (Digimon Adventure’s Evolution Theme) [Wada Kouji] [+Translation] -- REBOOT -- [or, in which s u f f e r i n g happens, and Tentomon is too precious for this world] 14. Vector to the Heavens [Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days OST] (*Kokuhaku, Koushiro’s [+Taichi’s] desperations, and Tentomon) 15. Vector to the Heavens (Backwards) [Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days OST] (*the Reboot, or everything is falling apart, and they both can’t do anything) 16. Kioku no Kakera (”Shards of Memory”) [+Translation] (Koushiro’s Digimon Adventure Tri Character Song) (*mostly for Tentomon, but--) (”Though I didn’t have enough courage, I spread my knowledge with both hands”) (”A closed wall to encourage you with the words [“Right” “I want to know” “Mistake”] written all over”) (”Even if I cry, I won’t change anything about the future made of erased words.”) -- SUPPORT / TAICHI YAGAMI -- [or, Taichi’s final battles and epiphanies in Tri, while they support each other] 17. Brofist [HetaOni OST] (*”I’ve always believed in Taichi-san before this, in any case.”) (”Let’s do this!!”) 18. READY?_ [The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya OST] (in which Taichi (& Koushiro’s)’s goggles will probably help work miracles) 19. Yuuki wo Tsubasa ni Shite (”I’ll Turn My Courage Into Wings”) (Taichi’s Digimon Adventure Character Song) [+Translation] -- TOGETHER -- [or, in which they reunite, and f i n a l l y realize and admit their feelings] 20. In The Rain (Piano Cover) [Miraculous Ladybug] (*please see: image number 13 of this beautiful art set by Harrup!) (*the piece in question is sfw but nsfw warning for the art set otherwise) 21. Hey My Friend [TommyHeavenly6] (Kamikaze Girls OST) [+Translation] (”The endless dreams, reality, and such... I was caught up with the distractions.”) (”If it’s just decorative pride, I don’t need it...”) (”Hey my friend -- tell me when [you notice].”) -- CONCLUSION -- [or, and so it ends, or, and so it begins... again] 22. Our Digital World [+Translation] 23. Butter-Fly ~Piano Ver.~ [Wada Kouji] 24. I Wish (Full Ver.) [AiM (also aka: Mimi Tachikawa’s seiyuu)] [+Translation] (*also in which Mimi cheers them on, because she def. would!) 25. Butter-Fly ~Memorial Ver.~ [Digimon Adventure Boys] 26. Aikotoba [Ayumi Miyazaki & AiM] -- EPILOGUE -- [or, no matter what...] 27. Utada Hikaru - First Love [Japanese ver.] (”You are always gonna be my love, Even if I fall in love with someone again sometime.” “You will always be inside my heart, There will always be a place for you only.”) 28. Utada Hikaru - First Love [English ver.] (”...And you should know, How I wish I could have never let you go. Come into my life again, oh, don’t say no.”)